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That was my house - it is now embers...

Donations are being accepted at
70 Church Street, Nanaimo B.C. Island West Realty Attention: Eileen or Darlene - 250-753-8111
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I will not go into the cause of the fire - That is so beyond the point it is inconsequential to my grief at this time... Hating Paul will not "bring back" my beloved Pets; Meow-Meow or Taz - - Meow-Meow was the resident queen of the house - - We all bowed to her - She was a beautiful blue eyed Ragdoll kitty - - Beautiful lil' curlup to me always wanting to ... Taz "The Spaz" was a deaf white boxer, a small bundle of love... For everyone...

Everyone he met, Taz LOVED - -

If you notice that I am not including photos on this post as my computers are a mass of plastic/hard-drives gone - - So my facebook page is featuring them - - Comment below with your email and I will send you my Facebook page link

Items that I lost in the fire?

For the past 25 years of my life I have been an artist in many avenues - - Acting; autographs from Pauly Shore to Jack Black, to Neil Diamond to RedCell, to Daniel Wesley Band, and all of my acting appearances (still on VHS lmao) with the likes of Danny "Partridge" Bonaduce, and photos of Danny Bonaduce and I and my singing telegrams of the last 20 years GONE

Easily 250 CD's - mainly 80's - to my favorite KISS to signed cd's of Daniel Wesley and others... Trance... Soundtracks ...

DVD's - - 300 of 'em - - Mainly, you got it - - 80's movies, ET, Mel Gibson's (all) and all of Arnold's... To yep 300 DVD's

KISS memorabelia (sp I know LOL) mainly of Paul Stanley - - and all of their cd's and dolls and whatnot... Avid collector

My porcelain dolls - Clowns easily 300

25 years of singing telegram costumes - - Clowns, gorilla suit, ballerina, many colored grass skirts and tops (bathing suit tops) all colors ... Naughty nurse outfits with corresponding boots - 5 pairs of "Naughty girl boots" Variety of colors - Red (fire engine) to white, and black and shoes/platform many with clear base and money inside and stripper outfits, naughty school girl outfits like 20 (a crowd fave LOL) and yep wigs????? ALL kinds of lengths and colors

And theatrical makeup

I am a Pisces and loved my baths - - so hundreds of bath products and bubblys were found in the bathroom - - - With the decor being the ocean - - So art of fish and whatnot

The kitchen decor was dedicated to kitty theme so anything that had a kitty cat (books, or wooden kittey knick knacks to art of kittys) was in the kitchen - this was Meow-Meow's favorite room because it faced south and she would be found on that window ledge in the morning watching the sunrise.. And that is where she died... I witnessed it UGH

My bedroom was dedicated to erotica and power of women/woman and sexuality - - A mermaid and my art pre-dominated... the female form and motorcycle boys lol books on wicca and the like - - goddesses, at least 30 dream catchers and incense/all kinds...

Pottery and plants were found thru out my home - - Always colorful and unique in look... and Sizes.

Books were everywhere also - - From Lance Armstrong to I collected books on The Kennedys, Marilyn Monroe and James Dean - -

I collected both books and Posters of James Dean which I had had framed - - That was in my computer room.

My computer was my livelihood so I had both a desktop and a lap top - - Both screens were 22 inch (I am a closet geek) LOL The desk top was my pride and joy the tower was a what I called my Disco Tower - When I had music on - It was a clear sided tower and the lights were keep beat to the music played WOOOO WOOOO Great for a person with ADHD lol

Laptop 22 inch yep

5 different colored ipods - Can you sense a theme of colour in my world? LOL

Stars were in my home allot too and disco balls either hanging in the windows or a huge one was found in my bedroom window...

Abstract art framed everywhere and oh my cameras - - 110 camera I called my James Bond Spy Camera - I had photos everywhere as well - - I refused to have a digicam I loved my disposable cameras

Mexican blankets and banners or hanging wrap around skirts hung instead of doors

Artistic was my home and oh there was fitness equipment - - one electrical treadmill HUGE and a elliptical machie, row machine, mini-treadmill, free weights (again all colors) and that was my home

Think art/color/ocean/disco balls/dream catchers they were in abundance in my life ...

I miss my Boxer Most - - If anyone knows where I can rescue another white boxer Let me know - He will be loved...

I can think more and more...

But I would like to write a BIG THANK you to the person today - - I was walking along the waterfront today and someone walked up to me (I did not know this person) and handed me an envelope onto which was written "You will find another 4legged friend once again..." Inside was a picture this person had taken of my Taz running free along the waterfront and cash - - The person left silently before I could thank them as I was stunned when this person knew me as The poor dear that suffered the fire

I pray that no one else ever suffers my pain - - Like this ...

Amen.

Dream Interpretor Requested:
My Dream Of Last Night:

I was sitting on my bed and daydreaming and then I started placing 18 inch sewing needles thru my skin!!!

But only on my face - - 2 thru my right eyebrow - - 1 thru my bottom lip (left to right) - 2 thru each cheekbone - -

What the hell?

Then I went to a job interview and I bumped into my ex after the job interview - - And he said that he did not like the (after he cleared his throat) piercings - -
So I stood before him and pulled all of them out? And blood BIG RED DROPS fell from the now holes in my face?

Then I rode the bus home and when I got home I glanced into the mirror and wherever a piercing had been was now yellow-green HUGE bruises? Like pea-soup green bruises? And very very white skin? Everywhere else?

INTERPRETATION?

Besides WIERD??? LOL

as i am to keep a record of "wrongs" with my neighbours - -
today, sunday, 9 p.m. - - stereo playing at top notch beginning with acdc - - and continuing ...
so loud cannot hear my own tv ...

yayyyyy

Well as I continue 2010 - I have found that I cannot, in 2010, stand chaos in my home environment -
I have spent the first week of 2010 - cleaning out my home of excess - Stuff I am not using or need - Knick knacks, clothes I will never again wear/fit ((sigh)) or the like and cleaning... I am surprised how chaos around myself in my "home" environment bothers me so.
TG for Freecycle!!! Or thrift stores **SMILE** So that is what I will be doing tomorrow COMPLETELY cleaning/washing floors/clothes and putting them away and putting everything away.
I can't believe it but I still have not put everything away - From my move here when? September 1st? So I have my goal for tomorrow of doing that "tomorrow"
Hmmmmmm - Surprise to me.

From: charleneann
To: depressionandabuses upportgroup@ yahoogroups. com
Sent: Sat, 2 January, 2010 5:01:38
Subject: [depressionandabuse supportgroup] Hello I Need To Write - -



I spent New Year's Eve alone, reading a book and snuggled up to my Boxer, named Taz. I am feeling so very alone. I reached out to others to spend New Year's Eve with - Either got their voice mail, were "too busy" or changed plans at the last moment...??? I have been single for like forever (10+ years) and am low income. I am a person that cuts and have walked away from the person that caused me to do so/more so. In 2009 I thought I was buying a home from my biological father, instead he took me to court and I lost and I had 72 hours to move. I am feeling very alone right now and thought I should reach out rather than cut. If anyone would like to correspond or is on Facebook lol I am there with this email... Don't know how to make friends really - Trying to go back to school/University to finish my B.F.A. but courses are soooo EXPENSIVE... Okay that is me in a nutshell.

Author: Charlene

I wrote the above to a Depression email pal venue I belong to - - Here is the first reply - - I am cutting and pasting it because it was so genuine...

charlene

im sorry your feeling this way but its good that you reached out to us instead of hurting yourslef im a cutter to and i know how differcult it is to stay away from doing that but you have taken a strong and positive step by coming here first and that on its own you should be proud of yourslef

these types of holidays are differcult for us specialy when we spend it alone i know i spend ome time with my parents but mentally i was alone through their lack of understanding

cuddled up to your dog that sounds cute it might have felt lonely to you but that just sounds a perfect way to see in the new year cuddled up to our faithful pets they never let us down i have a dog im up with her tnight cos she sick

but you must remember your not alone here we all are here for eac other

How I Spent My First Day of 2010 - -
I decided to go for a drive with my Faithful companion - And found, that within the rain, I was badly missing Vancouver and its being open/alive etc etc 24/7 365 days a year...

Everything but Blockbuster was closed LOL

Okay here is proof I am technically confused... I saw that many things were for sale - Including Nintendo Wii games - Well I thought this was a Name of a Nintendo Wii game (it was in with the rest of the games) and so Ummmmmmmmmm Get it home and its for the Nintendo Gamecube or whatever it is called ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH So off I will go back again for the right game - - GCUBE - RATATOUILLE is not for Nintendo Wii

**sigh**

But on the bright side? Got the Risky Business 25th Anniversary edition which **includes** All new documentary and never-before-seen Screen tests WOOO WOOO

Guess what I will be doing ASAP? While I treadmill? woooo wooo that is my day today... Me and Tommy.

Yay I rock.

In 2010.