we have not talked for like forever -
its wierd this weekend i have had a like epiphany - i've always had the thinking that "IF" this and "IF" that - like give you an example - IF ... I had been a better/smarter kid Sam  or Edith  would not have beat me ... Then it continued thru out my life... To my relationship with Jim  - I always thought that "IF" I had been skinnier (size 2 wasn't small enough lol) or IF ... I was prettier but mainly SMARTER when I was with Jim  because he was degree'd and he rubbed that in my nose every chance he got - BLAH And I carried that IF thing around forever
Well anyways - My Mother and Sam are here in B.C. K. area and I have expressed that I would like to see my Mommy and she is giving me the roadblock of Oh it is so far away (they have driven across Canada but can't drive to V. LOL) the roads are a disaster and it goes on and on - Well I have released that it is NOT all me me me me That I am the inadequate one - That she obviously has issues That I do not even **BEGIN** to understand...
So I ate my sadness away but those days are done - Just saw recent photos of me and I look like a very SAD individual - No wonder friends are not flocking my way !!!! So look out world!!!! Your photos look happy always MINE = UGH So I have joined a gym revamped my grocery list and have a treadmill in my home, a new bike and Wii fit LOL
So how are YOU? LOL
Char