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Friday, October 22, 2010

Good-Bye My Friend Darin 
You unleashed, I believe, all of your vented verbal fury my way the other day
The words you said, my way, made me stand very still, and in shock, 
I asked you, "Why are you saying these things?"
Yet you did not stop. 
I can no longer deny the truths, so very apparent to everyone else 
Drugs, and other sicknesses have you in their grip
Holding you tightly and you are almost swallowed whole 
You are no longer the man I met just 4 months ago - 
That man smiled and joked and dreamed - 
Does this photo look like any of those traits? 
Anger, self-hatred (yours) just oozes from your very pores 
I held you to me, 
and I cried when you left 
That is the last time 
I bumped into a person we both knew and the lies you told you further shocked me 
I did not know I could be shocked even further!!! 
You stated that your grand-baby died in birth - - she is alive and well and your daughter is well too...!!! 
You stated that your sister died too, in the very same time frame !!! 
I just talked to your sister, just yesterday... 
These are the reasons you gave for leaving your long-term (if you so wanted) unionized job - 
They "liked" you there!!! 
Long-term employment was yours... 
I was your friend that believed in you and smiled with you and saw a FUTURE with you
Wow
No longer - 
Our shared friend also told me that you were "pinging" out of control just 2 nights ago 
How do I deny that? 
Good luck to you, my friend, 
I wish you well, 
no more tears shed for you, 
by me. 
I need to heal
the hurt and 
continue on 
solo. 
-charann

Thursday, October 07, 2010

Contact Numbers Darin had on his cell phone - -
ashlie - 905-456-6598
curtis 250-535-2290
elsie 250-754-2231
johanna (sister) 204-897-6166
mike 250-618-4500
mom jansen 204-896-1313
t dave 250-713-3923
anonymous 250-713-6017

the last night that he called me was from 250-802-0331 - of course it was a man - - and darin said "i am sick and i am going to stay here tonight... i am very sick"

i called him back and said that he no longer has a place to stay here and he became defensive immediately stating that "this was a guy he did not know at all and just that he was so sick, he could not move, this guy would let him stay there tonight.

hahahaha what a joke - i let him stay here BECAUSE he was so sick - but look how fast i am replaced if i was ever "in" darin's life HAHAHAHAA

good bye darin, good luck to you...

Tuesday, October 05, 2010

okay here is what went down - - darin stayed until this morning and last night we had words or rather he vented and i cried... some of the things he said was he could not believe how vindictive i am !!!! i.e. talking to his sister online and telling his sister that he was a crackhead - i said to him that i did not bring up FIRST that he was/is a crackhead that his sister told me that he was a crackhead since he was 15 - and his reply? my sister would never say that and then he thought it over and said my sister fucking knows nothing about my life - i said she knows more than you think she does - she is NOT stupid
then he said that he would not stay around unless i kept my mouth shut around people - that this all happened because of my loud mouth - and he kept on going on and on about a letter that was written about him at his job - - i said darin, i would admit about writing a letter i wrote the letter to welfare because i thought that was bullshit what you were doing - collecting welfare and working bullshit - and then i asked him where did ALL of your money go anyways? he said you saw my car i had to repair it new brakes, new ((i quit listening at that point))
then he started to rant on and this is when i started crying i can't believe how vindictive you are!!!! you cut me off at the knees - - no one EVER not even my wife who is more woman than you will ever be - - has hurt me as much as you have - -
This is when I reacted - - Darin then if she is more woman than I will ever be - - Why are you still coming around MY door than? HUH? GO BACK TO HER!!! That all-woman - You left your job - You left w/a full pay cheque ENOUGH to fly back to YOUR ALL-WOMAN But no and WHY? Because I rocked your world from the very first time you ever met me at 15 - - like you rocked mine - and I rocked your world when you stepped off the fucking plane and you were NOT so NOT ready for that for your HEART to be touched - - and here was Char who is so unstable and hurting by life and yet she thinks the world of Darin - and YOU KNOW THAT YOU FUCKING KNOW that with every fiber of your being - and you CARE FOR ME and that bugs you w/every fiber of your being - - IT DOES IT DOES!!! And that is why you keep on coming back to me and screw you that she is more woman than me - - I rock your world - With just a smile, like your smile rocks my world and YOU KNOW THAT - That when we are good together, we are fucking fantastic and that is why you massacre it to put it back to where you are comfortable!!!
Then he started screaming - YOU VINDICTIVE LIL' BITCH - If I was as vindictive as you I would have called your family - -
WHAT FUCKING FAMILY? MINE? AND TOLD THEM WHAT?
That you are a whore -
Oh give me a break they all fucking know - - give me a break - - That has been thrown in my face the very first time I ever strutted on the stage and threw down the first costume and showed my titties DO YOU THINK YOU ARE THE FIRST DUDE I AM FUCKING THAT HAS THREATENED THAT? give me a break - give your head a shake
Well why did your Father throw you out on the street? What the fuck did you do to him? I thought that over and over - Since I have been living on the street for the past 10 days - Look at me - Don't I look like a street person?
No you look like a crackhead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Junkee-Pig!!!!
WHO WROTE THE LETTER???????? Nobody knew me as well as you did in Nanaimo -
Your lil' WHORE Celine!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! She wanted to sleep with you from the get-go and deal with that !!!!!!!!!!! And Dave - How many times did you sleep with him for your Crack?
I DIDN'T SLEEP WITH HIM - -
So you are not denying sleeping with Celine? She wrote the fucking letter!!!!!!!!!!!
You cut me down at the knees - Even at my worst I have never been this low - Because of a woman I flew across a fucking country to HELP - no one else was there to help you - Get you to therapy for your trauma NOBODY!!!!!!!!!!!!! And now? You are so pathetic you can't even get off your fat ass to take your puppy for a walk - I HAVE TO DO IT!!!!!!!!
I stood up and leaned nose-to-nose with him then (he was in a deck chair) Fuck you Darin - I am NOT your ex-wife - I do not sit on the computer 24/7 and take photos and change my photos hourly so my online "admirers" will line up and drool over my photo and that is my way to get my ego stroked - Yeah I spend time on the computer - - But every time I go on the computer I MAKE MONEY - And don't you EVER put down again how I make my cash - a) you are not making any
BECAUSE OF YOUR VINDICTIVENESS

Anyways that was the conversation - Then he stomped off to bed and slept in Oh wait he borrowed the phone yesterday and I listened to the conversation and he asked to borrow 500 (500 what I have no fucking idea)
I star 69'd the number and it was a hotel and I even got the room number -
When Darin left this morning he took all the items he wanted - - Clothes that were still here - And left what he did not want - New hat - LOL Coveralls and hoodie - I am pissed about the hoodie hahaha Was my fave hahahaha And took his miniscule 2 plastic bags of "stuff" - I asked him if he was coming back - Because I said I am getting off my fat ass and taking my doggy for a walk today and I do not know what time I will be returning
His reply was not while you are being like this
So who knows?
We started screaming this a.m. again JOY JOY

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