Dearest Darin 

I am still in shock with what you have done

To me 

I am trying to... 

As the saying goes, 'wrap my head around it,'

When you arrived here, like 6 months ago, 

I thought that a new, much happier chapter was to begin 

It was just another chapter of chaos,

which I really did not desire/want or need. 

I hope that you receive the help that you so desperately require

Your sister loves you, she tells me that often, 

She is picking up the pieces that you have cast away -

I understand that she is taking in your daughter, and grand-babies... 

Where you walked away.

This is none of my concern, really -

As I too, am walking away, 

from you. 

But not without tears,

rather allot of - 

Tears. 

I looked at you and saw the boy I fell for when I was 14 and wanting to believe in someone

That someone was you. 

How your life progressed -

Always with the help (and I say that sarcastically) of drugs - 

The drug of the moment -

You entered my world and I talked to you and talked and talked 

You took me and chose to destroy

me. 

Well I am reeling, I am, and weak, but I am not

Destroyed. 

Tears are flowing

and 

flowing. 

In time, I will heal. 

I hope you find your power. 

I can't see you but destroying yourself 

with your crack and crack-whores and whatnot. 

I wanted to build a life with

You. 

You wanted to 

destroy

Me. 

I listened to your words and believed, 

finding out in time that you gave different words to each person you talked to... 

The life/actions of a true addict. 

I have to walk away from you. 

To find life once again

for 

Me. 

Could we ever be friends again? 

Only if you received the help you so desperately need. 

Own up to your actions and lying words -

all of them. 

Return my cash, apologize to me and grab/reach for Rehabilitation. 

I see your potential. 

I do. 

-charann