Tears of a Feather... 

I just watched Criminal Minds 

and 

Cried 

It was a 2-part episode and those "in the know" 

knew that it was an episode very "loosely" based upon the killings of the 89 women 

in the Lower Mainland

Robert Picton and his brother 

killed women 

who were not worthy of the R.C.M.P's notice 

just like in the tv show - 

when a military man went to say 

"Hey my sister is missing - And there are others missing as well - - "

Not noticed because these people are not recognized as worthy of 

Notice 

Being transients, street-people, crack-heads and 

oh lesser of less - 

Prostitutes. 

I have worked in the "skin" business 

Does this change your opinion of me

Have I become less? 

In your eyes? 

Can I no longer be your friend? 

Neighbor? 

Colleague? 

Confidante? 

Friend? 

Have I become nothing? 

I cried and cried 

Knowing how many women disappeared into pig's belly's 

Until they were 

Noticed

to be 

Missing 

Gone 

Perished 

I've walked a thin line 

I've not shot a needle 

I've never understood why not - 

Just never have. 

I moved to this town to have a relationship with my 

Father 

That has so long been my 

Dream

Instead it became a Nightmare. 

I've blamed him and believed his description of me 

Fat, ugly, lazy whore. 

Wishing for death 

Yet not reaching for the Needle

Yet 

Watching another live each breathing moment for that needle 

pipe

I no longer know where he is 

I hope he is no longer 

making love every second to that crack pipe 

I found in his bedroom 

rather than me 

I cried some more 

and it seemed to cleanse my inner core 

belief

of my Father's description of 

Me 

I am strong, I am 

Me 

I've worked in the skin business 

I have 

Yet that is not 

Me 

I needed friends and been a friend 

I am 

lifting myself out of 

a very dark 

depression 

Dark it was 

Deep it was 

I am going to look at the glass as half full 

instead of staring at it's emptiness 

I am creating art tonight 

In rememberance of those 

Not 

Forgotten 

Women 

Which for the grace of my Higher Power 

could have been 

Me 

P.S. 

Donkey 

if you ever read this 

call me 

You have a friend

You do 

Let's get through this 

together 

- Me -