Hello Jeff -

I read online that your RedCell cd has been released but I don't get any copies - NICE. So I asked for 10 - (I promised same to peoples). You can, mail them to me (since you OBVIOUSLY don't want to see me PHYSICALLY?) to: Vancouver, B.C. V5X 4V7

I ask you out - you are always busy - One can only come to one conclusion - Yet I would like to be your friend? Yet I get a closed door every invitation?

Last invitation I get the message back that you had friends over - You've never invited me over "into" your world - Nice, again.

Just a few questions that girlfriends toss at one - When girlfriends get together. Why hasn't he invited you over? Even as a friend? NICE. Was the resounding word.

Was it because we had sex? That was or is a big no-no in Jeff's world - so the female no longer exists once such a thing occurs? Yet I said Yes to your statement that you would like to be friends - Yet you are always BUSY. Yeah I am wondering over here.

You've got my telephone number - Email address, etc etc Yet no initiating contact from you. WHY? So no even to friendship? You are not the man I "saw" you as??????? Initially? Where is that smiling Jeff? That I liked IMMEDIATELY? HIDING? WHY?

Always goes back to why. I have chopped off all of my hair and its all curls and blonde. LOL It's above my ears and angled at the back. God my neck is so white.

For the month of July I have a transcriptionist job so I am in Vancouver until the 21st, weekdays. I am mobile tho after 5 (I want to buy a new car & this job pays good so I might have a new one end of July).

Was I too messy? Too fat? Too what? That I am not even worthy of what? Jeff's friendship? ZERO Feedback from you, gets these rambling emails. Love ya Hun was and is a joke. Love is expressed in ACTIONS in my world. Like being a Friend. Hanging out.

Okay I am confused. Want to hear from you, want to receive 10 R/Cell cd's one signed. Oh is that where Love ya came from? I wanted the CD signed that way.

A man not of his word. NICE. Is my girlfriend's overall conclusion. Said you wanted to be friends hangout - hasn't occurred - Promised cd's - not received. So you are labelled NICE. But we are "just" disposable Island girls. Right? My feelings are not worthy of a discussion. Friends, I thought we would have had a BLAST, I think?

Your new blonde friend, (we did it this a.m.)

Me

I know I "sound" pathetic" in this posting - But I had CONFUSION in any form. I like everything "in its place". WTF is where I am left with this guy. So yeah, I post THIS.