Okay today was an extremely bad day for me - I just seemed to hit a brick wall of Self-depression and Sadness.

Then I began surfing the channels of TV - & It showed that this week Lance Armstrong is going to b on a late night talk show this week...

And just that news stopped me from Crying Immediately.

Why the tears? Because I was hurt that Jeff had his CD out and has had his CD out for approx. 21 days and have I received one? Or 10? No. Nadda. It hit deep.

Lance Armstrong twists into this in this way for me...

He is everything that I desire in a man. Strong, strong-willed, I love to look at him - He has every physical trait that I have always liked in a man - Yes ever since my very first date - That hairstyle turned me on. Lean facial features. Lean of build and a badness about him.

I have met Men before that seem out-of-my Hemisphere. Before.

As of this day, I AM making this the goal, by my 40th Birthday (or ON my 40th Birthday) which will be March 16th, 2007 I would like to meet Lance Armstrong. I am going to write to Talkshows and tell them of my goal.

What is my Goal? I am going to Meet Lance Armstrong. Why should I meet him? Because I am going to be 85 pounds lighter, by my birthday and for my Gift of doing so - I am going to meet LANCE ARMSTRONG - I am going to ride around Stanley Park with Lance Armstrong after I have successfully LOST THE WEIGHT.

Starting tomorrow a.m. I am going to monitor the weight loss and daily write to Lance Armstrong.

He fought the disease of Cancer - I am going to fight the dual diseases of obesity and depression.

Here is my first plea to Lance Armstrong;

Dear Lance Armstrong -

I have read your books and my favorite quote of yours is:

"I rode and rode, & I rode. I rode like I had never ridden;

punishing my body up & down every hill I could find...

I ride when noone else would ride."

-Lance Armstrong

(accompanied by Johann Bruyneel, trains for his first Tour de France after cancer)

If you can come back from Cancer, lying in a bed, day after day - I can get on my treadmill (& 5 other excecise equipments featured here in my home) and change my diet (BIG TIME, pardon the pun)... Drink 10 glasses of water/day and Live Strong!!!

Look at my pluses, instead of supplicating myself to men that are not worthy of my breath, never mind my time.

First my hair colour change, then my attitude change and now - I have 9 months to a re-birth!

I am going to write you a letter (I found your snail mail address online to a Texas address) and I am going to write, actually pen you a letter - And tell you how you have inspired me. Stopped me from a Doomsday Depression.

Tell you of my dream - to meet you on my 40th and to tell you where. Stanley Park, Vancouver B.C. CANADA. March 16th, 2007. 4 p.m. I would be extremely honoured for you, Lance Armstrong to join me in a bike ride that day.

After I have lost 85 lbs.

Right now I have Nothing. Single, animals that love me. Solo and have been solo (no MALE relationship for like forever) but that is going to change from this day forward.

My blog now has a name Lance LIVESTRONG Armstrong. He is my armband, to health. Lower cholesterol and lower blood pressure.

Thank you for being such an inspiration Lance, to me.

Good night, for now.

Ms. Charlene Sieffert