Well the gym I had to get away from because of numerous reasons - let's see - what bothered me BEFORE the jacuzzi tonight and the wine and the .... lol and the ... hahahaha

I was supposed to perform with a body builder this weekend - I got all psyched up and even went to buy the costume and then he says nope don't need you - and i want the cash back - return the items get cash back - i am like non-returnable items i purchased? so now? do i owe him the money or not? and another person said that he felt pressured into me being in his act and yadda yadda yadda and of which i thought, pressured? i asked 15 million kazillion times if he wanted me to be part? and i was asked for a song for his act((which he is still using and i am sure I will NOT be getting credit for the song choice? - - of course not)) so yah "whatever"

and the other note? i wrote that letter i posted below to yep, the damn british trainer and ZERO RESPONSE so hey, what is the saying? "it is better to have loved and lost, then never to have loved before?" B.S. on that note!!!

so i am taking the weekend to ignore the gym COMPLETELY - recharge and "breathe" hang in my hammock and probably smoke more .... lol and get some lovin' from my baby boy boxer... and then go back to the madness of the gym on monday night...

until then, the gym no longer exists in my environment... just my immediate environment exists and THAT'S IT

until monday 6 p.m. i am released from the drama LOL then i can go back - ignore the world and do as cory said do it for you, ignore the rest - you are there for YOU AND THAT'S IT - ignore ignore ignore

which i shall do - a new "calm" char will be there and non-reactive, i will no longer react to scott since i am not worthy of even a reply (email/call, whatnot) to my letter ... OUCH lol

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm - friend my ass

yep he's an ass and he's a brit lol too damn good looking for his own good hahahaha mmmmmmmmmmmmmm would sure look fantastic in my king-size bed tho!!! mmmmmmmmeow!!!

on that note, more wine, .... and mmmmmmm more wine lol

char