well today is not a good day - - feeling old, feelin' fat, feelin' alone and all of that... and fightin', my "edge" seems to have drifted away...

don't know if i want to continue the fight to lose weight... UGH ... much more comfortable hiding in my hole/home...

like c'mon who would seriously want to date this old workhorse? yah right ... ugly as can be, etc etc

i have decided that i am just going to go workout, not talk to anyone and just workout... that's it...

no more goofiness, just working out - - yep.

why? because i am so flipping boring hah ugly and everything... bad. yep