Dearest D.J. 

Well we last talked on Thursday afternoon and you told me your flight itinerary... 

It is now Sunday and I have not heard from you since... 

Your last words were that you were going to go to your travel agent and try to get your flight itinerary moved ahead/up... 

I have called the airline and your itinerary stays the same... 

So where oh where did you go? 

The lil' girl voice tells me that you have gone back to your ex and are spending the weekend doin' the ol' bump and grind... 

The logical side says that you are spending the weekend either with your room-mate... Or your other mates saying good-bye... 

Well my nerves are shot since it has been decades since you and I have seen the other... 

And, hey, so very much has gone on in either of our lives... 

I am so **NOT** the girl that crushed on you at 14... 

Smiling up at you... And giggling, and running away from you and blushing so very badly when you would ask me for a kiss... 

But knowing as I ran away from you how very much I wanted you to kiss me and explore the whatever came next... 

Instead I ran, having been told that D.J. is one BAD boy, not really understanding the word BAD in this context... 

But knowing that I wanted to know... 

Then you were gone... 

And I was left to wonder about you... 

Then I "found" you on facebook and wanted to know ALL about you... 

How were you, were you good? Were you happy? 

Were you Single?? 

Did you want to come and be loved by me, finally? 

I am playing the CD  DRESED TO KILL by KISS 
I play this whenever I need to de-stress 
And that is right NOW...
I am beginning to hope... 
That you show... 
But the lil' voice inside is stating that you are spending the weekend doin' the bump'n'grind with your ex or exes... 
As my vision of you is that you have MANY MANY MANY exes that are quite almost satisfied, wanting your... and your mouth back on them... Whispering their name as you go down on them or enter them, promising them the world as well... 
Or the goody-goody voice inside of me states that you are spending the weekend with your friends, saying goodbye... 
Then another voice says WTF is he LOL 
Trust, sure is an issue with me LOL 
I so want to walk from this, then I also want to dare to care... 
If I do not hear from you before Thursday, 
I am staying in my world, and not venturing forth... 
I so would love for you to be the Prince I glimpsed of you and your promising smile, when I was 14... 
Also the devil that I found in your eyes... 
You are My Clyde and I so would have been your Bonnie... 
Oh the adventures we would have had in our youth... 
Now is it our time? 
As my favourite Budhist friend states, 
"What will be, will be." 
I just wish it was tomorrow and not Friday. 
Just call me ONE MORE TIME before Friday LOL 
This girl is trippin' 
The song that is playin' as I type this final line is apt; 
C'mon and Luv Me
by 
KISS 
no wonder they are the Greatest Band in the Land... 
Or 
Anything for my Baby 
\I would steal 
Anything for my Baby 
I would wheel and Deal 
Anything for my Baby
... 
That would have been Us 
Bonnie and Clyde 
Clyde and Bonnie... 
You would have thought of the idea, 
I would have replied, everytime 
"This is how we could do it better..." 
-charann