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Okay I just have to journal... 

It is still surreal... 

Not really believin' that it is at all real... 

My young girl crush is here beside me... 

I always wondered about "him" 

Now he is here... 

Did I think past the point of him arriving? 

Of course NOT **giggle** 

I am enjoying it so much... 

I look at him and smile... 

Let me describe him, physically, head-to-toe... 

One of the things that struck me and made me giggle, 

when he immediately got off of the plane... 

Oh there is my fixation of a man with a mole on his cheek... 

I've always enjoyed men with a mole on their cheek... 

And here is the prototype **giggle** 

He gave me a hug and I moaned for my hello, OHGAWD... 

Slamming into my body with a hug and a kiss, 

heIShere... 

He was the smart one and knew at that moment to just wrap the obviously, to him, shaking girl with a big bear hug and it was the first time I smiled up at him and let a giggle go, and stated, "Yep, I'm short..." 

With a smile he replied, "Yep you are short." 

That was when I could first almost relax... 

As the days progress... 

I have found that my problems are with trust issues and do not know really how-to adjust that... 

I love him - - Naked. 

We kissed the very first day as I found that I could no longer resist... 

Or his brown eyes, grinning down, of course, at me... 

I found that as his moods changed... So did his eye color... 

 Mmmmm, what gets the biggest reaction from him is when I walk up to him and smile up at him, the very same sentence every time, "What are you up to?" 

ME??? 

Physical description? 

He was my prototype of men I went onto date... 

Big smile, always the smile... 

Let the adventure begin... 

I really do not know what to think... 

I am just going to close my eyes and type... 

I wish that this time I could take control and wrap him up and smother him with love and kisses and explore... 

But he has the strength that I enjoy in a man - Fire in his belly - 

Perhaps that was what my mother was warning me off of from? 

Just know that every time I walked near this boy that the immediate response from my mother was, 

"Stay away from that Darin-boy, he is baaaaaaaaaad..." 

Some of the changes... 

He has changed my radio station to a be-bop station, there are photos up of his memories... 

He has his own opinions about all and everything... 

Hard-to-budge... 

Then he smiles and I really do not mind... 

The color of his lips I notice everytime that we kiss... 

I enjoy the immediate change of his eye color as I lean forward for a kiss... 

I enjoyed the look of strength and pride he gave me as he walked off of the plane and smiled down at me, wanting me to share the moment of his arriving... 

Of having arrived and yes, 

"Let the Adventure Begin..." 

Bonnie has her Clyde back... 

I was not aware of all of the walls that I had up ... 

And sharing my space... my life and sharing it with him... 

One day at a time... 

One moment at a time... 

Just give me more smiles and I am there with you... 

Too... 

-charann