Donkey 

I washed your laundry 

That being your sheets today -

Accepting that it is over ... 

Finito 

Done 

I cried last night 

After you left my driveway 

After you shot up in my driveway and took a hit 

and 

Admitted you were sucking a man's dick for your next hit 

I can't believe you still own your car 

Ahhhh 

But you need a roof over your head 

Oh sorry for the sarcasm 

Or is that my being True? 

Truthful? 

Facing your Reality? 

I gave you me 

My love, my heart, 

I touched you and smiled and believed 

You were never there with me, were you? 

I let you move in with your first hello 

Via an email 

You knew you had a roof over your head 

As time went on I learnt 

Of your coldness 

That you had never worked for 16 years 

Instead labeled as a Sociopath - 

Unable to work. 

Yet you grabbed a job in my town 

Hah - 

Your co-worker is your pusher/drug dealer and he is one that you suck of a dick 

I am Done. 

To love an Addict

Is to choose 

Death

Very 

Slowly 

I instead 

Choose my Solo Tomorrow 

Of which you have but few 

But - 

If you choose to walk away from that life 

I am Here for you 

As I do love you 

But 

Clean 

Not the man, the monster, 

You showed me taking the hit and shooting the needle. 

I died inside, my heart crumbled 

I hurt 

But I had to send you away 

Because of that pain. 

Clean up - Walk away from that Life 

and you choose Love - 

Mine 

And a life of whole-ness 

Skiing, schooling, scuba diving - 

Exploring the Island 

Unlimited 

Way beyond a crack pipe and a Needle. 

I miss you as I smell the cologne still on your sheets and I load them 

and 

Yes 

I cry 

For the Us 

That never 

Was. 

-charann