i hope 1 day you read this - i really do not care when - as i write this i do not know where you are in any way - i just wanted to tell you that i wish that i could have a re-do - of the whole summer and be the girl/woman that u needed at the time... i was just so damaged and hurting (which i was not aware of at the time, really) i could just basically explain that i was like a war victim basically shell-shocked and in pain... internally and was really not ready for a hurting man to enter my life
i hope that you are taking care of you...
i miss your smile - when you smile, darin, you are the most beautiful person that i have ever seen/met... and i see the young man that captured my heart so very fully so many years ago
if you ever need a friend darin, i am always here for you, i am... j.j. is growing and is what i call my mini-shetland pony...
if you have met someone, i hope that you are happy...
if you have flown back to ontario... i am glad... i always thought that tracie was the "one" for you... you so very obviously, i thought, loved tracie...
but who am i to talk... i can't define love even if someone gave me a million to give a definition of love...
i just wanted to write to tell you that if you ever want to go for a walk and laugh at the insane size of j.j. -
also the room/yours is always available... for however long you need it ... free of course ...
oh i am sure that you have lost my number... it is the same believe it or not... 2-54
my news? i am now in hypno-therapy it is helping allot - did you know that the fire actually changed my brain chemistry? which is in its way literally physically changed my "outlook" and brain wave energy of my brain, itself? P.T.S.D. post traumatic stress disorder ... nuts...
i am doing great at school/university (i have zero distractions so of course i am i.e. no social life whatsoever) no ja------- in my world hahahahaha to disrupt
well you are always welcome in my world, darin, check in whenever you want... i am always here for you, IF you ever need a friend or someone to talk to, to say hi or laugh with... the one thing i enjoyed was talking to you... you have a beautiful voice, me thinks... and smile...
i wanted to get closer to you and demanded it to be MY way and only my way sorry about that... hopefully we can be friends again one day...
char and j.j. and p.k.