Hahahahaha Never a dull moment THANKS I think HAH The medical business in Vancouver is that I have signed up to be a guinea pig basically for drugs that are not on a market yet... So this one pays 4200$ for an eleven day stay... Well G told me (and I quote) "Right now let's get your home in order, so you have a strong base to work from and in mid-February when the job market swings up in N., then seriously start jobsearching." So I was basing the job searching on that For Dad to arrive and call me "fat lazy cunt who is prostituting in V. or addicted to the Internet over here" I thought okay WHAT????

Well when I came home - I have a small desk in my bedroom all the drawers were hanging open (they weren't when I left) So that is a very obvious sign that things were looked into, wouldn't you say? The only thing "missing" is an old love letter from Dave R. HAHAHAH So "perhaps" that's a good thing?????? That must have given Dad a jolt reading it HAHAHAHAHA And no, they didn't "find" anything i.e. N.B. papers - as I have them HIDDEN - which noone went into as nothing was moved in there.

Yeah, I spazzed on telling G. anything - OOOOOOOOOOOPS. So it's like a megaphone going STRAIGHT back to M. - I should have known because everytime we go somewhere G. has to refill her minutes on her cell phone HAHAHAHA D-uhhhhhhhhh She only has pay-as-you-go...

I did spend money with G. she watched me cash my personal CHEQUE that is where that came from - So easy explanation - No personal Cash goes directly onto bill payments not fun money hahahah

I reacted to Dad because he used the C word; fat lazy cunt and that's straight from Sam's put-down dictionary - So Dad was remembering what I had told him before I am sure - As I have never heard Dad use the c word before - And never want to again. So that is where the reaction IMMEDIATELY came from.

Yeah hindsight I agree with you I should have pulled out the papers but Dad entered my home WITHOUT KNOCKING screaming from the get-go and again, that was a Sam thing - Unlocking my room and immediately screaming - So I immediately shut-down to anything that was asked or requested - Until the C word - Then the verbal fight was on.

Okay I get it now that "Dad hates games" Understood now. HAHAHAHA

I had written to G. for her to stop in IF SHE WANTED TO to let Bandit out - And she did - But when Dad was here - SCREAMING - he said He and M. were inconvenienced by having to put Bandit out - Yet G. left me a note saying she did - and left him in the mudroom - So that one I don't know who did - But Dad did say that Bandit when he got here was contentedly sitting on my bed - Obviously I did not "care" if he shit or pissed on my brand new bed - I said I left him in the bathroom - Dad just screamed, WHATEVER/ANOTHER LIE!!!!!! So anyways, Bandit was in the mudroom, sliding glass door open, contentedly sleeping on his bed in there when I got home HAH

Oh G. and M. both showed up today - No sign of my drunken father - I asked M., where's dad? And she said after giving me that M. look - He's ummmmmmmmmm - out. Yeah passed out, was what I was thinking. So I left it at that.

We had to go to the Dr's as I had stabbed myself - in the belly where the most amount of body fat is HAH So had to look at that - Keep it clean, it will heal, stupid girl basically is what the Dr said He was an older Dr had never heard the term Cutting or being a Cutter ever before in his life - So was like What is that? You are a cutter? What does that mean?

Oh and I am signed up for counselling and went for a session today - It was alright - After I spewed for 35 minutes the psychologist thinks that all 3 of us need counselling not just me HAHAHAHA But for now, I was there, so here we go :)

Slept the day away - G. sent me 5 emails while I slept - I am sure she is even forwarding my emails right? Niiiiiice in all of her emails she is now telling me which times she is with me "on her time" and which times she is being paid by Dad lol It's a fucked up another situation - But another one I get to learn from, right? You and I will just refer her as M's Megaphone HAH

Overall, it was a learning experience - Much needed obviously - Oh during M. driving me around, her advice was Just tell the truth - Quit assuming how the other person will react to your truth - The psychologist told me something like that too - His words were, clearer, Be responsible for your own truth STOP THERE. Anything about the other person you are talking to? IS ASSUMPTIONS.

Oh the other thing M's wisdom was that I live in a dreamworld - My resume reflects that. I was like, I LIKE MY RESUME TYVM. But she did not stop - So I let that one fly too - But G. stepped it up too - I saw the two of them "in action" They finish each other's sentences - Wait no - G finishes M's so who follows who? It was obvious today.

So yah, another 'INTERESTING DAY IN THE TRAILER PARK" hahahaha

Love you,

No longer homeless -

Oh I told M that Dad's button for me was always coming over here and stating, over and over, that he was going to sell this place, HOW THE FUCK WAS I GOING TO FEEL SECURE WHEN I HAD THAT AS REINFORCEMENT? Her reply Whatever, that is your Dad - not you - I said Hello? Then just wondered for the millionth time, THIS WOMAN COUNSELS PEOPLE? YIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII Then she went on, Your Dad says allot of good stuff about you - I said, Funny never TO ME - I just get I AM GOING TO SELL THIS PLACE - Again I got the Whatever. I've grown to hate that word HAHAHAHA

Oh the psychologist said to me that I should sit Dad down and ask him, Is this trailer a Bribe or a Gift? If it's a bribe then NO THANKS - Bribe being I have to be want U WANT ME TO BE being that I accept that premise when I accept this trailer - If it's a gift - Then Thanks and we have to set up boundaries - RESPECTABLE boundaries. I thought OMG That is going to be an INTERESTING talk HAHAHAHAH So I told M that I would like to have an adult to adult talk with my Dad, sans screaming, sans alcohol/drugs (on his part) and sure, we'll start from there - I doubt if she heard me even say that statement but maybe she did.

Oh thru out the Day M had to turn this all to her - I had so many last minute things to do today w/leaving for Mexico on Sunday - this is so crazy - She had to zip to a lawyer's office - while I was at the Dr's I didn't even ask - My part of the will was probably being changed hahahaha Oh also M had promised me the food from the fridge (so it wouldn't rot while they were in Mexico) C called to say she had cleaned out the fridge and was on her way home - So niiiiiiiiiiiiiice LOL

Overall a very "interesting day in the trailerpark"

Love you,