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Friday, October 20, 2006

Hey My Favorite Person -

Okay here is the situation... I went over to Vancouver I tell you all about "The Problem" Which I ask you for your ADVICE "once again"

Okay I do not know if I have ever mentioned Narda to you before? She is 57? 58?? Years of age... And I met her originally at a Women's Help Group... Her and I gelled right off - I liked her warped sense of humour - "Almost" as warped as mine...???

I think that it has been 3 years (??) that I have known her??? So that is the background...

The arrangement was that Narda was to pick me up at the ferry terminal (which she did) and I was to stay at her place... Which I did... But what occurred during the night was just sleeping over and talking... Late into the night...

Other than Narda is a CHRONIC chain smoker... She lives in a 1bedroom condo. Which while she is chain smoking has like each window open like 5 cm.'s (if that) So by the time that we were to go to bed I was basically inhaling NON-AIR. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH Or rather non-oxygenated air...

Add to that, Narda to get to sleep? Turns UP her tv and leaves it on ALL NIGHT LONG So she can sleep. Needless to say I could NOT sleep???

So I woke up quite unslept and grumpy... So I said to her, "Why do you sleep with the fucking tv on LOUD all night long?"

Narda suffers some 100's of physical ailments - Obesity (severe), chronic depression, ADHD, chronic complainer AND every negative thing that happens to her? Is the other person's fault (i.e. never her own).

So I said to her, "I think why you have so many physical ailments is that because you do not let your mind "sleep" shut down completely at night - You body does not have any 'recovery'/rest time. Hence 100's of physical ailments. I suggest that at most you should have a background noise machine, not a FUCKING BLARING TV."

She told me to shut up that she was not listening to my suggestions, that she has slept that way for the last 30 years and was not going to change now.

So she quickly dressed and left me on my own in her condo - Which while I was left alone, a fax came thru, but the fax machine ran out of ink (of course) and I could not fix it, no ink refiller resource.

So I left went to the apointment and since then? I have called her twice to say I had to come back to Vancouver - Would she like to connect for dinner? Or what not? And she has not returned my calls? Usually she would call me back before I would hang up??????????

So I ask you - What do I do now? I tried her home number (She has a cell phone too) today to see if she was okay - And immediately the fax beeeeeeeeeeeep sound came on (She has a separate number for the fax number so I do not know why the fax number comes on immediately?) When I was calling her home number?

So what do I do at this point? Oh a bit more - Originally she had Wednesday off and was supposed to come over and see my home? Hence why I was calling her?

Oh the physical ailment that Narda was dealing with? She has 3 teeth left in her mouth - And she was over and over tugging on a tooth - Hoping to remove it? Because it was hurting her so badly? She kept on begging me to pull it out? Which I refused to? But she kept on tugging on it, or moving it around? Hoping to loosen it enough for it to fall out???

So all in all, I have not heard a PEEP from her? What is your solution to this?

I do not know what to do???????? Or how to react?

Tuesday, October 17, 2006


Dream;

I was in a house, looking outside from a big bay window (for reference of Where was I?) I could just see flaaaaaaaaaaaaaaat land. So I quickly concluded that I was back in the Prairies.

I turned, slowly, and looked around teh room that I was in. The word that came quickly to mind was that the room was very "comforting". With floor-to-ceiling bookshelves, instead of walls. 3 of the 4 walls (other than the big bay window).

So the house "owner" was either a varacious reader or an actual writer. Hmmmmm...

I still did not know where or rather, whose, house I was in.

I was in a daybed, with a thick, white comforter and facing the bright bay window. Lovely. Everything white wood, so very bright. Lovely. Big pillows.

I continued looking around the room, trying to decide whose house I was in? I could not.

As the light brightened outside, I saw flowers outside, a rainbow of flowers. Beautiful, and obviously great care was taken of the flowers outside. Blowing in the soft winds of the prairie.

Whose house was I in?

Then a door opened into the room, I glanced towards it. As I did so, I sat up in bed, rearranging the pillows and enjoying the softness of both the pillows and the comforter. Again, all white.

I glanced at the doorway - RICKY HILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The love of my youth!!!!!!!!!

My very early youth, being my first "love" of a ten year old's heart.

The memories flooded back as I continued to stare at Ricky. Absently I noticed that he was smiling his "Ricky" smile at me. Waiting?? In the doorway.

But the memories flooded over me, so neither of us spoke.

I could see my 10 year old self sitting on a large rock, in the middle of a bike path, trees everywhere, and the quietness of a Prairie summer day. Sobbing. Loudly. The extremely dramatic and exhausting tears of a ten year old girl can only cry.

The reason being that my step-father chose to move the family from everyone dearest to me. To a small, extremely small! If not out-right Hicktown. One main road town? Ewwwwwwwww!!!

It might as well have been a move to another planet, it felt so foreight. Moving from a city to a country town with One Main Road. Ugh.

The tears continued.

In the utter completeness of my tears and unhappiness, I did not hear "Ricky" ride up. So he seemed to just "appear." Magically to a ten year old girl, sobbing so very dramatically, unaware of her surroundings.

Right beside me, he spoke, "Why are you crying?"

I jumped, almost tumbling from my rock boulder and dared a glance at my intruder. With every intention to hate this Intruder on first glance and to secondly, scare him away with my Evil Eye.

Instead I viewed the MOST BEAUTIFUL BOY sitting quite casually on his bananaseated golden, sparkly bicycle. With big U-handlebars. Very cool to a ten year old tomboy girl!!!

I also noticed his brightest red afro of hair, but it looked right on him. Any other colour would have been just... Wrong. The smile felt that it was...

Just for me. And green eyes. Green eyes.

Sigh.

I was instantly and Forever.

In Love.

As only a 10 year old girl can be.

Instantly.

With his smile intact, he once again asked, "Why are you crying??"

The whole story burst forth, words upon words bursting forth. How he understood me, I never knew. But in my telling of moving from my city, from my beloved aunties, uncles, cousins and so forth - To me being alone now, not knowing anyone and scared - That this was not the city, it was like one main road??

And on-and-on...

Somewhere in my tale of woe, unnoticed by me, Ricky had climbed off of his bike and had sat down beside me. Yet I continued to tell of my sadness, and tears. He whispered as he was now very near, "May I kiss you?"

As Ricky was very much 14. To him, I was a damsel - in distress. And damsels, needed kissin'. Which he was very willin'

Me, being "all of 11", had NEVER had an older boy notice me in "that" way before. The question instantly stopped - My tears, my words and made me turn my full attention on the beautiful, colourful boy seated now very much beside me.

On my boulder rock.

"You want to kiss - Me???" It was a magical and very new thought for me.

As I had, before this very moment, grown up in a world of cousins (male and female) or aunts and uncles, grand-parents, being asked to kiss. Was very much New.

Before this question of kissin', I was "just" one of the cousins. If not almost one of the boy-cousins, as I was such a tomboy. And boy-cousins, much less boy-tomboy cousins did NOT do kissin'!!

I remember it was I that did the leanin' forward to receive the kissin'.

I also remembered how very tightly I had closed my eyes. What I was so afraid of seeing I do not know??

And I very much remember feeling the softness of his lips - against mine.

The kiss lasted forever - Forever into memory land, that is.

His lips were so very soft, full and stayed near mine in a very dream-like way. I was not anytime soon leanin' anytime away.

Nosiree!!

My eyes flew open as it was he that withdrew from the kiss.

I wanted it to - to - never - - End.

Once again Ricky leaned towards me, and my heart raced as I thought, another kiss!!! Yay!! Instead he whispered, "Beautiful Girl? It will be alright - From this day on, I will be Your Special Secret Kissin' Friend and I have 2 sisters that are twins - That I know will be your best friends."

I smiled, tears long forgotten, believing my beautiful special kissin' friend.

Ricky stood up, reached down for me, and spoke, "Besides that, you are MUCH MUCH MUCH to pretty to be so sad."

My beautiful friend thought I was pretty. My world became a rainbow of colour that day. Forever altered.

Ricky continued to smile at me, as he picked up his bike, nodded as I did the same with my bike. Then he quickly rode away, calling over his left shoulder, "Follow me!!!"

Like there was any question???

Ricky had me, my heart and my devotion - For life. As he was My Very First Soft Kiss.

Which tasted quite minty, I thought, as I pedaled after him.

Ricky jabbered all the way to his house. I don't remember a word. I just remember, very clearly, watching him, as if from very far away. A dream - perhaps? I was in love. Smitten. Instantly.

All too soon we were at his house, therefore no longer "alone", and girls!! Were rushing out of the house - Screaming for Ricky! Ricky!!! Who's your friend? Where did you meet her? How?

8 years of fast friendship began that day. Yes the twins Instantly became my Bestest Buds. No questions asked.

But with Ricky? As I grew "up" he NEVER asked me "out". He was more like my "protective" older 1/2 brother. every time I arrived at the Hill home.

Before I entered the Hill home, Ricky would instantly "appear" - showering me with kisses. Telling me, whispering how beautiful I was, all the while kissin' me soundly. Making me gasp with breathlessness. That first kiss never "quite" forgotten.

Ricky continued to be that boy hero for me. Seeming to be on the outside, but near, my world. He would be seated at the other end of the country dance halls, I entered, with his sisters. Yet he never asked me to dance. Yet sometime during the evening - He would"find" me in a corner and shower me with kisses - Telling me how very beautiful I was that night. In fact the ONLY beauty in the hall that night.

Of which I would return to the dance, not noticing another boy in the dance hall. My boy hero was there that night and I was beautiful.

The twins never noticed their bother - Who notices their Brother???

Yes everything was golden - Like that young boy on his golden bike.

All of these memories cascaded thru my mind - Instantly as I saw Ricky in the doorway.

I giggled, a carefree giggle, feeling 10 and protected again. Even though I was a woman of 40 in his daybed. "So Ricky, it's your home I am in?"

"Yes and I am here to serve My Beauty."


It was only then that I noticed he was standing there with a tray - Coffee mugs and croissants.

Ricky placed it on a small table by the daybed and it instantly crystalized in my mind that I had never slept with this man! Yet I was in "his" bed. His daybed, mind you, but "his" bed. In my pj's. Sexy.

I looked up at him and said, "Ricky, you have not changed at all. Still very, very beautiful and golden."

He smiled at me, "Much less hair - No more afro."

I smiled at him, "Still beautiful Ricky. To me."

The smile continued, "Your coffee??"

"Just cream, please."

He turned towards a bookshelf, "I have something to show you."

He looked over several of his books, pulling out a book, smaller than the rest and a light pink cover with a single red rose on its cover, "Here it is."

He handed me the book, "I wrote about you and it was published."

"ME??!! But - But - You never asked me out Ricky. Why was that?"

"I was waiting for you - To ask me."

Ricky left the room silently as I read the book. Shocked it was about me.

THE DREAM SLIPPED AHEAD - MINUTELY -

I was now dressed and walking towards his kitchen. Where I found all kinds of ecclectic pieces of art, large kitchen, again white. A large skylight overhead. Plants, flowers everywhere, yet it retained manliness.

But it was the original pieces of artwork (metal) that caught my eye. I was playign with a turning, twirling art piece; black metal with flowers that burst forth at the top, of colour. Variety of coloured flowers. All metal though. Quite fetching.

Ricky entered the kitchen.

I smiled and said, "Yours?"

"Yes."

I leaned against the counter, as I sipped my coffee, watching him. Realizing I loved this man with every fiber of my being. Why I was still single at 40. Was fr this man. "Ricky, why did you never ask me out?"

"I answered you - Because I was waiting for you - To - Ask me. YOU NEVER DID."

I leaned towards him, warapping my arms around him, whispering against his lips, "I am asking now."

I kissed Ricky with all of the love I knew that I felt. From the very first ten year old's moment. Of meeting this man. My red, golden boy hero.

The warmth of that first kiss was not lost.

DREAM INTERPRETATION?

I have never seen Ricky past Graduation/His. Or in my adult life. But it is VERY interesting that in my dream he is successful in everything. But it beaning Artistically. Yet he was still Manly. Published poet/author, artist, avid gardener (apparent in the abundance of flowers found looking out every window).

Although I did not note in the dream above, how he was dressed. Casual jeans, dark blue, if not black, and a flannel shirt.

Ricky was still very easy to talk to, immediately. Perhaps that "immediate connection" Or spark? Was love? Realized? At last? Long lost, but found? At last? A second chance??

Dunno... INTERPRETATION ANYONE??????

Friday, October 13, 2006

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Awhile back I was grocery shopping (SaveOn Foods/Surrey **plug!!! where's my **FREE** food LOL) And there was an author there to sign/sell his books.
He handed me a bookmark; (and I will type EXACTLY what is on the bookmark)
The GOOD WEEDS
A GREAT GIFT
AUTHOR WAYNE RUSSELL
1193 Caroline Road
Box 3397 RR#2
Clearwater, B.C. VOE 1N0
1-250-587-6404
PLACE AN ORDER, I WILL SIGN AND SEND
And he is as good as his word! I now have his book and it brings back "memories" for me and laughter. It is a MUST-READ if you want to know about life BEFORE Nintendo, cell phones, even electricity!
Let me transcribe my favorite story (so far) in the book ((I am sure Wayne won't mind)) This story made me chuckle because this is soooooooooooooo "Prairie" thinking. Or rather my Grandmother's way of thinking - This "Mom" could be my Grandmother -
NO EASY LIFE
One day, while doing her chores, Mom was coming down the ladder from the hay loft, and like most kids, jumped to the ground from a few steps up. Landing on a stone, she twisted her ankle, and for over a week she had to wear a rubber boot because her foot was so swollen. Finally, she was taken to the doctor. Upon examining the black and blue injury, he got angry, telling Mrs. La-Coute to keep the child off the foot until it was better. Mom had cracked a bone. The doctor bandaged it up, but nothing changed at home. Like Mom said, "Someone had to do the work."
When Mom was 17 years old, the older La-Coutes decided to retire and move to the city. They packed Mom up, bag and baggage as the saying went, and delivered her to her brother, my Uncle John. Mom has heard from her adoptive family maybe 3 or 4x since then. Now at age 96, she sits across the room from me reading. When I interrupt her for this information, she sighs and says, "Oh Adam! They were so good to me, I always had food and clothes. They even bought me a bicycle." I believe God knows what he's doing. It was because Mom was brought home to her brother that she met my Dad. She was 17 when they met and 18 when they married. And so our Weed family began.
That is sooooooooooooooooooooooooo Prairie thinking. ".... so very good to me... " Completely forgetting the hardships or the what-nots. Not like today's way of thinking where one MUST not only Keep UP with the Jones's BUT excell even better with what the Jones's have!!! Sheeeeeeeeeesh.
Love the book - Order one if you can. The stories are Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrreat!!!!!!!
A+ Rating in Char's Rating World of Books-MustHaves in one's Reading section But then again I am a Prairie gal thru and thru (You CAN take the girl out of the Prairie - BUT you can't take the Prairie out of the girl!!!!!!)
And yes, my book is signed.

Tuesday, October 03, 2006







What a Kiss Means

*Kiss on the stomach-----"lets have sex"
*Kiss on the Forehead ----"Forever you will be mine"
*Kiss on the Ear ---"I'm horny"
*Kiss on the Cheek ---"We're friends"
*Kiss on the Hand ---"I adore you"
*Kiss on the Neck ---"We belong together"
*Kiss on the Shoulder ---"I want you"
*Kiss on the Lips ---"I love you" OR "I want you"
*Holding Hands ---"We can learn to love each other"
*Slap on the Butt ---"That's mine"
*Playing with the Ear ---"I can't live without you"
*Holding on tight ---"Don't let go"
*Looking into each other's Eyes ---"Don't leave me"
*Playing with Hair on Head ---"Tell me you love me"
*Arms around the Waist ---"I love you too much to let go"
*Laughing while Kissing ---"I am completely Comfortable with you"


--Advice--
* Dont ask for a kiss, take one.
*If you were thinking about someone while reading this,
you're definitely in Love (or strong like)*

--Requirements--
*Post this again after reading!!


If you REALLY LIKE someone right now
and MISS THEM and can't get them out of your head
then Re-post this within One Minute and Whoever you are missing will surprise you tomorrow.
Repost this as
"What A Kiss Means"


Monday, October 02, 2006

Moving you "find" things - Well I have just found My cherished Love Letter from the man pictured here. James Curtis.

Here is the letter (transcribed verbatim) -

August 18, 1992

The day after our worst fight yet. God I hate even saying that, but it seems to be true. Will you never believe what I say? Is it that we have been apart for so many years that it doesn't seem real that I could all of a sudden have feelings for you now? If that is the case, I can understand it, but I am telling you that thought no longer applies. I have "developed" much stronger feelings than I thought I would. As I said last night, probably one of the main reasons, if a selfish one at that, is the knowledge of the feelings you have for me. Knowing that you love me now and thought about me for so long is one of the best feelings I could have. Now just because I said that, don't get the teenage idea that the only reason I like you is because you like me. Other reasons that I know you would love for me to say (and I will because they are true) are: 1) your independence; I don't like what you do some times for money but in an unfortunate way, I am proud of the fact that you have made 'ends meet' for a few years. 2) Yours (sic) looks; I think you are very good looking. I like your big blue eyes and you look so cute when you brush your teeth. 3) Your laugh which I haven't heard enough of lately. You always make me feel good by laughing at all the stupid things I say. 4) Your nick-nacks; (sic) that's right your toys ... everywhere... I'm not sure exactly why but it makes me feel that you are not lazy like me... you have a love for life that you always want to remember... nomatter if what you are doing is relatively low key, or is big, exciting or important. 5) Your birds and cat; it shows that you love animals and living things like I do. 6) Your attitude toward people; you are down-to-earth and certainly not stuck up... you could befriend anybody... you are very friendly and you make people feel at ease by your warmth... although I think you could be a little less forgiving. 7) Your love for sex; I need not say much here except I hope you don't lose interest in sex... with me. 8) Your enjoyment of sports. I now realize for various reasons you haven't done too much activity since I came out, but what I mean is that you have a mind for athletics... some women are completely inept at throwing, running, jumping, catching etc. or they have no interest what-so-ever in watching sports. I know if we had the money we could participate in more and watch more. 9) The fact that you are not lazy; unlike me when you have to do something you simply do it, nothing said and no big deal. When I ahve something to do, everybody has to know and it's a big production... I could take some lessons. 10) Finally you are you. Everybody has faults and you have yours, but I didn't come out here for nothing. And I certainly wouldn't be staying here if I didn't want to. I left alot (sic) in Manitoba and I miss the friends and family that I have there, but right now I want to see if things can work between us... especially if we can find jobs. I don't know what else to say to make you believe that the only other girls in my life that mean anything are: Mom, Em, Kell, Coll, and Ria. I'm just sorry that I can't buy you a nick-nack like everybody else did to show you that I care for you.
Jim
JamesCurtis

'Nuff Said. I've carried this EVERYWHERE. Thank you for the Love that Was.

Friday, September 29, 2006

OMG The tired mind works in wierd, but wonderful ways. I, Dad, my step-mom and friends spent last weekend MOVING me. AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

This past week I have been moving my stuff in and I found out that my Dad has bought me a brand new bed. Muuuuuuuuuuch too soft of a mattress, so my back is adjusting. OUCH, but in a good way. **SMILE**

But why is Jason Priestly (Priestley?) and his photo here? Well I tucked in the other night and VERY, VERY VERY exhausted... Fell asleep like at 8:00 at night and fell into a deeeeeeeeeep sleep (yep, of exhaustion).

Then somewhere in the night I dreamt of Jason Priestly (EXACTLY like he appears in the photo above) - The great smile and laughter, of Jason.

First I do not know why - This dream goes where it does? But it went there LOL Here is the dream; ((I would LOVE an interpreter of this)) And WHY Jason Priestly LOL

So here goes;

I am in a schoolyard, and walking towards the swings - Or perhaps it is White Rock Beach walkway where I have taken Bandit so very, very often? Not sure. Just swings, and other school area out door items, around.

So I am walking towards the swing set, and it is dusk evening. Fall. As I am in a tweed jacket, with patches on the elbows, white turtle neck sweater and jeans, boots. I am casually walking towards the swings, kicking stones, quite casual.

When I notice someone on the swings, slowly going back and forth, as if he is waiting for someone.

Then as I come into the view, there is that FAMOUS Jason Priestly smile. He moves, as if to get up and off of the swing, when I push him back, and slightly push the swing back, and climb ontop of JASON PRIESTLY.

As we swing back again, with my legs now firmly wrapped around JASON PRIESTLY, he leans into me and the kiss deepens. I sigh, deeply and know that I have finally "come home". I feel so safe and warm, and wanted.

The kiss and the swinging back and forth, continues. The kiss seems to go on forever and ever. I have never enjoyed a kiss, as the kiss that I am sharing with Jason.

I lean back and Jason moves with me, not breaking the kiss. I feel the kiss throughout my whole body and I shudder, moaning Jason's name. Suddenly I noticed that Jason is wearing a scarf with my fingers and I slowly untie it, still not breaking the kiss.

I wind the scarf around Jason's wrists and tie him to the swing. I finally break the kiss and trail my lips towards his right ear and murmur how very much he turns me on, I can feel his smile, of reply.

It just feels so "right" being with Jason. I never want to leave the swing or Jason's arms.

The dreams ends with us still kissing on the swing and the evening becoming "golden". Like the sunset in The Outsiders. Y'know the one I mean. The stay golden scene sunset.

Mmmmmmmmmmmmm. Interpretation?

In real life? I have never looked at Jason Priestly "that way". Of the 90210 days I much preferred Luke Perry HAHAHAHAHA Always wanted to "do him". **EVIL GRIN** Not the "boy next door" As Jason is a former-Vancouver-ite too.

Saturday, September 16, 2006



I am moving to Nanaimo - Life's full circle. I began my "life" in Nanaimo, at the age of 20. Y'see, I never really "knew" my Father. I was one of those Divorced families of the '70's. My biological mother let her bitterness of my biological spill over into not letting me "know" my Father.

He was like the Easter bunny, with a tan. Or Santa Claus with even a better tan. **SMILE** As that is/was how often I got to see him as I grew up.

At the age of 18.5 years, I phoned him and said, "Hey, I'd like to meet you."

His reply, "Okay, as long as you go to University. No lazing around my house."

It has been a learning experience about me, my Father and life. Good, bad and always interesting.

Currently? My Father has stepped up to bat and has bought me a trailer (no I am not trailer "trash") it is quite a fetching trailer. I am nervous as hell. I have a network of friends, and the like - Moving to knowing noone and the fear that entails.

As my Father told me the other day, "Moving to Nanaimo at 40 is going to be wayyyyyyy different than moving at 20."

Ummmmmmmmmmm - No kidding?

I was busy today crying all day - Wondering how I am going to get all of my "Stuff" packed - As I have 3 bedrooms of stuff Shittttttttttttttt and I have been giving TONS of stuff away... I have sent a goody bag to my best friend Rachel and my "Chosen" Mom Jan - Which both women will get a kick out of as they are very special women - In their own right and to me. Rachel, so much so, that I have christened her my "Sistahhhhhhhhhhhhh." Which is MUCH better than a sister. **GIGGLE**

But yes, I was crying all of today, moping around when the Terry Fox movie came on. It all came into perspective.

"I will do it... One step at a time...."

-Terrence Stanley "Terry" Fox


I will do the move, Terry, one box at a time.

Thank you for continuing to be such an inspiration. I wish I had met you. But I looked at the time frame of your run - I was busy running too - That same summer. Ironic but true.



Friday, September 08, 2006


Oh I just wrote a very drunken letter/email to JEFF so drunk that I have lost it... I thought that I saved it to cut and paste but Ummmmmmmmm I pressed PASTE and nothing is there...
Up horny as hell, wanting him, wishing he had chosen me... Told him to basically do a booty call as I have already drank down a bottle of red wine... PAINTED TURTLE wine... Very cute wine bottle decorated... Mmmmmmmmm red wine... I am going to continue drinking to get thru tonight...
I guess what set it off is a multi-tude of things, I am moving to a place to be ALONE once again...
The **ONLY** time I was ever happy in moving was when I was moving to be with a man... Mannnnnnnnnn that would be JamesCurtis... Mannnnnn he was a great lay... Fuck... He could give head allllllllllllll night long... and what got me off was that he talked to my vagina...
It was hilarious... "Is Lil' Ms. Flower liking this? Would lil' Ms. Flower like more of my tongue?"
Of course lil' Ms. Flower wanted more TONGUE... Isn't that a GIVEN? Being a Female?
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I wrote to Jeff, asking him for a booty call TONIGHT only ROFL Telling him that the door is open... Cum on by... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
As if...
Right.

Thursday, August 24, 2006


oh i hope the image works it's a video of DR WILL "Dr Evil" of BigBrother fame. TOTALLY hilarious.

If it doesn't work;

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mHwDaz3pPD8

Enjoy!!!

Wednesday, August 23, 2006

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006


I have had the straaaaaaaaaaangest dream last night.
I dreamt that it was late at night and I was walking along Beach Drive in Victoria B.C. The stars were bright and several shooting stars were seen.
I stopped to watch the stars and the clear night, when this covering the whole sky flying saucer/rocket ship covered all of the sky!
I glanced around to see if anyone else walking along, noticed the same thing as me and no. Noone else was looking up at the sky! Just me!!
All of a sudden from the rocket ship/flying saucer, came asteroids. Being shot towards the earth. 100's of them. Fast and furious. I gasped and several people, walking in front of me, turned to glance my way.
Then I noticed that everyone walking along the walkway/drive, were in period dress. It was turn of the last century!!!
I pointed up to the sky and everyone stopped, transfixed.
Then everyone began to run, as the asteroids hit around us.
Then the dream ended.
WHATEVER does/did this dream MEAN? WIERD, is an understatement.

Thursday, August 10, 2006

Okay I have started my workout routine TODAY... Arghhhhhhhhhhhhh...
Why is there a photo of Lance Armstrong when I mention working out? He is my Inspiration. Big Time. Physically? I think that he is the Best Looking Male on this Planet. I just "like" looking at him. He looks good in clothes - especially jeans. What he has achieved in his life - Is beyond compare.
I am going to write to Oprah and tell her of my failings (5'6" and 187 lbs right this moment Oooooooooouch). That my Dreams Come True would be to meet Lance Armstrong on my Birthday - 40th - Which is March 16th, 2007. I can't believe it either. I would love to go for a Bike Ride with Lance Armstrong on my Birthday. After I have lost my weight.
My goal is 115 lbs on my birthday AND meeting Lance Armstrong. I have set other goals in my life - That have seemed rather insane to reach and I have achieved them. So this is just another "Goal."
72 lbs to lose.
Ooooooooooooooouch. LOL.
If Lance can beat Testicular Cancer I can lose the Weight Monster. Beginning today.
Lance? If you, by chance, read this? My world would begin and end, if you were to visit me or I met you somehow on my birthday in 2007. To ride a bike with you, would be a Dream Come True.
I will keep you posted, Dear Lance, of my progress.
Stay well.
CharleneAnn

Friday, August 04, 2006

Well, I just thought that I would quickly write... Another HOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT day in Vancouver, B.C.
I am the "Mommy" of a 7-year old Dalmatian named Bandit. He has been QUITE a handful, while we have been together.
Lately he has been waking up every night at 2:00 a.m. with shaking his head incessantly (non-stop) and whining. So it has been making for me having rather TIRED days. Since we are both up from that point until the sun comes up.
I have done an online investigation for his variety of symptoms (he has others - which I will elaborate below.) I strongly don't believe in going to a Vet (unless it's a broken bone or his intestines are basically hanging out LOL). Home remedies/naturopath is my way.
So here are the online/home remedies I have found for his symptoms - Which he has all of the below. Don't get a Dalmatian if you want a low maintenance dog. Or a cling-on - He has hysterics if he does not "see" HIS human. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
Well I have discovered that Bandit has ear mites. Transferrable by CATS. So yes, there has been a New Cat introduced into our home recently. I call her FatCat (which she is - nasty name but she is a Foster Cat and I refuse to name her further than that - due to not wanting to form an attachment for when she is adopted from our home.) So yayyyyyyyyyyyy, FatCat brought EarMites presents for Bandit. So the solution is Vitamin E oil and Olive Oil to be massage into his ears. Great!!!!!
The bonus of the Olive Oil is that it has a dual purpose. I pour it onto his morning dish of food (1 capful) and this works for his excessively DRY skin. Which is shown by his incessant scratching. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr...
Yogurt (again 1 capful) is thrown onto his foodstuff/morning. This removes the itchiness/dry skin too.
Garlic pills - For removal of fleas. Seems that fleas are classified as "vampiric" therefore do not like garlic. Sorry, VERY bad joke there. LOL But he sweats out the garlic and it "supposedly" kills the fleas. So 3 pills/day. Morning.
Also black tea is to remove his red patches/itchy patches of skin.
This is all DAILY. Yeeeeeeeeeeeehaw.
Takes 1 week/10 days for treatment to "start" to make a difference.
I will keep an online/daily journal here to make notes if Bandit is BETTER.
Natural/home remedies solutions vs. dragging him off to the Vet for drugs/other medications. Wonder IF home remedies WORK? I will give it ONE FULL MONTH for a difference to be noted. i.e. No more of his symptoms - None. Therefore SUCCESS. Otherwise after the September long weekend Bandit is being dragged, literally, kicking and whining, off to the Vet.
With me very angry that the Home Remedies did not work. But I found these "remedies" on the PetSmart website. So let's see if they are telling the Truth - Home remedy wise.
P.S.
I have continued to try to post PHOTOS here... Not cut'n'paste but URL linkage and NOT WORKING would appreciatte HELP HERE. WHY DOESN'T my photo uploading work in any way here? P's me off, as I had a really CUTE photo of a Dalmation to post...

Tuesday, August 01, 2006


Okay here is my dream from last night - Totally wierd - Don't know from "where" in my brain it came from (other than the quote of mine, when interviewed for News reporters at the end).
We (Dad, Michelle and I) were at a parade, which had just finished, we were walking along the road, going around people, to get back to the parking lot, then to the Vancouver Hotel (where Dad and Michelle were staying).
When we came up to some people being arrested, some were on their knees (still quite drunk, sweaty) with their hands behind their backs, handcuffed, or being handcuffed. Approx. 4 people like this, 6-8 cops in attendance.
We continued on walking.
Shortly thereinafter, I got separated from Dad and Michelle, as I knew where they were staying, it was no big deal.
Up ahead I saw 2 people being detained, on a raised platform. They were elderly Asians (don't know why that was important, but they were). On the left was an elderly woman, in typical asian ware. Big bamboo hat, etc. Beside her was, I thought, was her husband, as they were making allot of hand gestures and talk (not English).
In front of the male, to the right, was a long bamboo pole, which had a sharp knife on one end. It "seemed" to be just lying there, "just" out of his reach. Then I noticed he was handcuffed, on his knees, but minutes before he had not been.
All of a sudden, there was a scuffle, behind the raised platform, of the female Asian. All police officers, on the raised platform, rushed to investigate, and yes, left the platform.
Staged?
In a split second, the male asian, kicked the knife/bamboo pole towards the female.
Noone else in the crowd around me, noticed. Until the female Asian, screamed bloody murder (in her language) and raised the pole. Jerking it forward towards the crowds/me included below. She continued to gesture, wildly, in a circle. The police below continued to be occupied.
Someone handed me a bamboo pole, with a rounded hook on the end - Why me? I have no answer for this. I ran and jumped onto the raised platform and engaged her with battling poles. Straight from Star Wars, I thought, with my proficiency. Luke Skywalker would be proud. Somehow after many hits of our "poles/light sabers" I disarmed her.
Knocking her pole away. During the police below, noticed my plight and rushed towards the raised platform. Waiting until I disarmed her.
Then they rushed forward and handcuffed her, and led her away.
Newspaper reporters/mikes galore rushed towards me, asking me, "How did you know how to disarm the angered, armed female?"
"The force was strong within me this night. I was a strong Jedi tonight. Luke and Howie, of Big Brother Allstars, would have been proud of me tonight."
Then I stepped off of the raised platform, and melted into the crowd.
The next morning, at the Hotel, Dad awoke me with the newspaper, showing pictures of me on the stage. The photos had been altered, that the 2 of us were now holding light sabers. The heading, "The force was with her."
Throughout our breakfast on the terrace (scene stolen straight from Pretty Woman LOL) except the characters were Dad, Michelle and me - There were knocks on the door and gifts of appreciation were being brought up by the busboys for me. One a cheque for 250$, nike runners, with a note saying, 'Thanks for being so quick on your feet!' Gift baskets (x10) and all the while my Dad shaking his head.
Later on in the news, we heard those elderly couple were drug lords. Hah. Only in Vancouver, China Town.
Decipher this dream HAHAHAHAHA Why? LOL

Friday, July 28, 2006


What I am Looking for In a Man...

Let me ramble for a bit...
A real true man, not one that full of sh*t
Eyes of blue, green or brown -
One that barely ever frown(s)...
Must love Dogs, have a sense of humour
Oh please don't be a loser and still live with his Mother!
Full head of hair, with a grin of the sly -
Pretty boys, developed into beautiful men - I don't understand why
Men that shop, men that love coffee
Are the ones for meeeeeeeee...
Must love dogs, oh I've said that already -
Oh and a bit easy
**GIGGLE**
Love hockey, cycling and gardening
Oh and collecting, art and cuddling...
WHERE FOR ART THOU?????????
Oh right Lance is now Single - But come on Could Lance REALLY handle a Canadian Gal??? With a warped sense of humour? **GIGGLE**
P.S. All replies answered, with a photo (your photo gets my photo)
Don'cha just love a demanding female such as I?
It's all good... And better if you are truly out there!!!
Only reply if you can spot the MOSAIC artwork in the 2nd photo **SMILE** Nahhhhhhhhhhhhh, just love drawing attention to my own art pieces **SMIRK**
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE TELL ME WHY ALL OF A SUDDEN I CANNOT
ATTACH PHOTOS TO MY BLOGS HERE?
Makes my blogs DAMN BORING :(

Monday, July 17, 2006

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr... For some reason I can no longer post PHOTOS here?? PMOFF royally.

Okay the photo I wanted to post was one of Will "Dr. Evil" on BigBrother7. Totally adore the guy. Except OMG Whiteman? HAHAHAHAHA

Here is my take on BB7 So far - From a single gal's perspective -

Will "Dr. Evil" Like him - I'd date him in a heartbeat - If he ever makes it up to Vancouver, B.C. CANADA, I'd definitely invite him out for a LARGE Strawberry Margaretta. Definitely!!

Except why is picking on Poor Howie so VERY much? Howie doesn't not deserve 1/2 of the verbal abuse Will is inflicting his way. Nahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Liked Will wayyyyyyyyyyyy better WITH the tan. But he still has the biting witt and sarcastic ways, so ya know it's Dr. Evil "in da house."

I like his look, his sarcasm, and he plays the game EXACTLY how I would, if I was in the BB house. Exactly. Lie, lie, lie to win. N/P. I also love his hair, if I was in there, I would be begging Will to style his hair, over and over and over. But then again I think that I am almost fetish about men's THICK hair. Love it. All my men, of substance, have had awesome heads of hair.

Will? If you just happen to read this? Comment how I can get ahold of you "We'll do lunch."

Kaysar -

Wow for looks alone. He is above me in intelligence, I think. If I were in the house, I would be watching him very closely. And would make an alliance with him, because he has WINNER! Written all over him. Smooth, suave and kewl, Kaysar. Love his hair too. Like that he has let it grow longer. **WICKED GRIN** Just beautiful in appearance. His smile? Would be my undoing. If he were needing my vote? That smile would convince me to follow his lead, wherever he wants me to go, vote and be. HAH. Yeah, I'd be an easy one to sway his way, just one grin away. HAH.

James? Like him. Except for his eyebrows. They bother me. Too trimmed? Is that it? But he'd be a guy I'd hang with, talk to, confide in and share laughter with. He'd be my FWB. Perhaps several times a month. **SMILE** I'd hang with him and enjoy being naked with him. HAH. Long term? Zero, but I'd enjoy the "ride."

Howie - I just adore. But which sex does he prefer? Or does Howie have sex? HAHAHAHAH I think he is a Jedi Knight that has absconded from sex - He is "above" all that messiness. I do love Howie. I would be his faithful lapdog. The way Howie follows Will around? I would be following Howie around. Just for the next manic bout of laughter.

Howie reminds me of this good looking guy I followed around in High School. Charles Shilliday. I was in Grade 9 to Charles' Grade 12. Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh I ADORED CHARLES. I would take hundreds of photos of him and he'd just shrug it off, like "Oh another day, another 1000 photo of ME taken by Char, day." HAHAHAHA Man, I adored Charles. Don't think he ever took it seriously. Dunno why, but yah, like Howie is following Will around and naming all the things he likes about Will. Yep that was me for Charles. CHARLES SHILLIDAY WHERE FOR ART THOU?

Janelle - Fun - Love her, a winner. I'd hang with her in the house. Just 'cuz. To be in the "Winner's" Circle/Clique.

Jase - Bothers me Bad. So flipping Gay or deep in the closet wanting to be forced out. Marcellus should do him in a porn someday. In those coveralls. 'Nuff said there. Nope wouldn't look twice at Jase (even tho his bod is a male god's) he just screams Help me out of the Closet, PLEASE!!! BLAH.

So who would I date? Be with long-term? I would be with Will. 'Cuz I've always had a badddddddddd weakness for the boys with the bad streak. Yep streak of EVVVVVIL. So Dr. Evil? Ever visit Vancouver? HELLLOOOOO

But then again James, want a FWB? I'm there for ya. HAHAHAHA

And Howie? Come Party in Vancouver and we'll check out all the beautiful people of Vancouver. And I would love your ongoing vocalizations of Vancouver. Yep, GOFORIT all Howie. I would love to hang with ya!!!

Kaysar? I would just love to make an entrance with you, to ANY party in Vancouver. Because how do I compare? To such male beauty? Like would anyone be noticing me? HAHAHAHA Like comeonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn... But I would LOVE that moment of Entrance. In a tuxedo (him, hahahaha) and me in a long dress with sparkles... YEP would love that moment with Kaysar. Besides does Kaysar date? LOL Never read if he did hahahaha

There's my 2cents so far with BB7. Yep addicted. SADDDDDDDDDDDDDD hahahaha

Sunday, July 09, 2006



Okay today was an extremely bad day for me - I just seemed to hit a brick wall of Self-depression and Sadness.
Then I began surfing the channels of TV - & It showed that this week Lance Armstrong is going to b on a late night talk show this week...
And just that news stopped me from Crying Immediately.
Why the tears? Because I was hurt that Jeff had his CD out and has had his CD out for approx. 21 days and have I received one? Or 10? No. Nadda. It hit deep.
Lance Armstrong twists into this in this way for me...
He is everything that I desire in a man. Strong, strong-willed, I love to look at him - He has every physical trait that I have always liked in a man - Yes ever since my very first date - That hairstyle turned me on. Lean facial features. Lean of build and a badness about him.
I have met Men before that seem out-of-my Hemisphere. Before.
As of this day, I AM making this the goal, by my 40th Birthday (or ON my 40th Birthday) which will be March 16th, 2007 I would like to meet Lance Armstrong. I am going to write to Talkshows and tell them of my goal.
What is my Goal? I am going to Meet Lance Armstrong. Why should I meet him? Because I am going to be 85 pounds lighter, by my birthday and for my Gift of doing so - I am going to meet LANCE ARMSTRONG - I am going to ride around Stanley Park with Lance Armstrong after I have successfully LOST THE WEIGHT.
Starting tomorrow a.m. I am going to monitor the weight loss and daily write to Lance Armstrong.
He fought the disease of Cancer - I am going to fight the dual diseases of obesity and depression.
Here is my first plea to Lance Armstrong;
Dear Lance Armstrong -
I have read your books and my favorite quote of yours is:
"I rode and rode, & I rode. I rode like I had never ridden;
punishing my body up & down every hill I could find...
I ride when noone else would ride."
-Lance Armstrong
(accompanied by Johann Bruyneel, trains for his first Tour de France after cancer)
If you can come back from Cancer, lying in a bed, day after day - I can get on my treadmill (& 5 other excecise equipments featured here in my home) and change my diet (BIG TIME, pardon the pun)... Drink 10 glasses of water/day and Live Strong!!!
Look at my pluses, instead of supplicating myself to men that are not worthy of my breath, never mind my time.
First my hair colour change, then my attitude change and now - I have 9 months to a re-birth!
I am going to write you a letter (I found your snail mail address online to a Texas address) and I am going to write, actually pen you a letter - And tell you how you have inspired me. Stopped me from a Doomsday Depression.
Tell you of my dream - to meet you on my 40th and to tell you where. Stanley Park, Vancouver B.C. CANADA. March 16th, 2007. 4 p.m. I would be extremely honoured for you, Lance Armstrong to join me in a bike ride that day.
After I have lost 85 lbs.
Right now I have Nothing. Single, animals that love me. Solo and have been solo (no MALE relationship for like forever) but that is going to change from this day forward.
My blog now has a name Lance LIVESTRONG Armstrong. He is my armband, to health. Lower cholesterol and lower blood pressure.
Thank you for being such an inspiration Lance, to me.
Good night, for now.
Ms. Charlene Sieffert

Thursday, July 06, 2006


Well, well. Another day, another blog.

First off, lead off with a good joke. So here's one:

Yikes that is supposed to be a VIDEO lol

Let me see if it is...

Oh other note? After sending that email to Jeff, his reply? I will get back to you when the CD is out. NICE. NOTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT...

Charlene Ann

Monday, July 03, 2006


hahahaha I just wanted the picture... never mind the contest blurb...
won a cd recently - entered the contest because of the cutey ON the cd cover (i am officially a "DOW" - dirty ol' woman LOL) as i surf the net i find out that the cutey was born AFTER i even grad HAHAHAHAH omg
but the cutey is teddy geiger... and his cd is AWESOME!!!!! IF you get a chance to buy or burn his cd - DO SO!!
besides being a CUTEY beyond compare - he looks like all the boys i dated at that age BIG TIME - and talented!!!
the song i love? beyond like control? FOR YOU I WILL (CONFIDENCE) omg i am not one to have the confidence to tell someone how i feel? but "for you i will" niiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiice - in a good way.
he is a beauty - true, but his talent will keep him touring, i think, for many years to come. now that i know "who" he is? i definitely WILL go see him - damn missed him this time around GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR and the tickets were only 13.50 lol next time around will probably be 42.50 lol
teddy???????????? love ya! a DOW fan, fer sure!!!!!!!!! (as i listen to the cd for the 3rd time lol)
charleneann
FOR YOU I WILL (CONFIDENCE)
lyrics - T. Geiger, B Mann
Alright yeah
I'm wandering the streets in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be
Nothing tastes as sweet as what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you
CHORUS:
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will for you I will
Forgive me if I st-stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
"Cuse I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a waterbed
Do I seem familiar
I crossed you in hallways a thousand times
No more camouflage
I want to be exposed
And not be afraid to fall
CHORUS 2:
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannonball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will, for you I will, for you I will
For you.
If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
And shout out your name so it echoes every room
That's what I'd do
That's what I'd do
To get through to you
CHORUS2
For you, I will...

Sunday, July 02, 2006


Hello Jeff -
I read online that your RedCell cd has been released but I don't get any copies - NICE. So I asked for 10 - (I promised same to peoples). You can, mail them to me (since you OBVIOUSLY don't want to see me PHYSICALLY?) to: Vancouver, B.C. V5X 4V7
I ask you out - you are always busy - One can only come to one conclusion - Yet I would like to be your friend? Yet I get a closed door every invitation?
Last invitation I get the message back that you had friends over - You've never invited me over "into" your world - Nice, again.
Just a few questions that girlfriends toss at one - When girlfriends get together. Why hasn't he invited you over? Even as a friend? NICE. Was the resounding word.
Was it because we had sex? That was or is a big no-no in Jeff's world - so the female no longer exists once such a thing occurs? Yet I said Yes to your statement that you would like to be friends - Yet you are always BUSY. Yeah I am wondering over here.
You've got my telephone number - Email address, etc etc Yet no initiating contact from you. WHY? So no even to friendship? You are not the man I "saw" you as??????? Initially? Where is that smiling Jeff? That I liked IMMEDIATELY? HIDING? WHY?
Always goes back to why. I have chopped off all of my hair and its all curls and blonde. LOL It's above my ears and angled at the back. God my neck is so white.
For the month of July I have a transcriptionist job so I am in Vancouver until the 21st, weekdays. I am mobile tho after 5 (I want to buy a new car & this job pays good so I might have a new one end of July).
Was I too messy? Too fat? Too what? That I am not even worthy of what? Jeff's friendship? ZERO Feedback from you, gets these rambling emails. Love ya Hun was and is a joke. Love is expressed in ACTIONS in my world. Like being a Friend. Hanging out.
Okay I am confused. Want to hear from you, want to receive 10 R/Cell cd's one signed. Oh is that where Love ya came from? I wanted the CD signed that way.
A man not of his word. NICE. Is my girlfriend's overall conclusion. Said you wanted to be friends hangout - hasn't occurred - Promised cd's - not received. So you are labelled NICE. But we are "just" disposable Island girls. Right? My feelings are not worthy of a discussion. Friends, I thought we would have had a BLAST, I think?
Your new blonde friend, (we did it this a.m.)
Me
I know I "sound" pathetic" in this posting - But I had CONFUSION in any form. I like everything "in its place". WTF is where I am left with this guy. So yeah, I post THIS.