Hey You my Favorite Person -

Well here is a ditty back at ya - Free Typing - Isn't it great typing 98 w.p.m.? Well I am taking a break from the transcribing...

Okay LUST LIFE - Here is the latest email from my "Rockstar" the one I have blogged all about - Remember my blog URL? Testing your memory recall Old woman HAHAHAHA

Here is Jeff's latest email - Hey Charlene! Thanks for the cards. And thanks for the invite, but I'm headed out of town on Sunday for a few days, be back midweek. Hope you had a great weekend!-Jeff
I am trying NOT to over FREAK (imagination on fire LOL) and all of that and IMMEDIATELY think OMG He's gone away for 4 days - WITH A WOMAN - He's met another woman... No, I have slept with this man, hung out with him, and this I know (from being with him for less than 24 hours) This man has intimacy issues... BIG TIME... His longest relationship? 2 weeks. Why? Because that is how long a relationship/dating lasts until one gets the desire to become more than Hello, let's go for dinner. Or another level of intimacy. Jeff can't do it.

For some reason he has gotten it in his head - And I strongly believe that the reason is the lil' 3 year old Jeff who was shuttled from biological parents to grandparents because Mom stated, "I can't handle this." The 3 year old Jeff there and then decided I am NEVER NEVER NEVER getting this hurt ever again. He has looked for reinforcements thruout his life to justify such thoughts - High school dating went nowhere - Adult dating same. His friends whom he has performed at their weddings for/singing/playing romantic ballads for - All weddings have ended in shambles. Movies reinforce such thinking. It won't last. How many divorce movies are there?

So I am trying NOT to think of the WHOM he does not mention or rather the LACK OF details of his trip - So it is either WORK RELATED/Gone to see his Mom - She lives in Palm Springs - Or he's just gone for a drive. I have no/zero idea if he has a retreat of choice? Like me and my SSI? Instead I will, tomorrow most likely send him a VERY OPEN-ENDED AND BREEZY EMAIL again... Stating Dinner on Thursday? If he's still %^&$^$^#%^# busy then I will re-think all of this... Chasing a tail has never been my forte lol

Oh backtrack a bit... D'ya know what FWB? Is? Think my bright friend - HAHAHAHA It's Friends With Benefits - You are not dating seriously but you are above friends, with intimacy... Did I tell you this? Well we were intimate for one weekend, then he disappeared and the end of the week, I get a TEXT MSG on my phone stating, I can't do FWB anymore - No matter how FANTASTIC the Benefits were!!!!!!

Wowzers? So I quickly ph'd him and asked WTF? So he basically wants to retreat. Retreat, retreat. But he stated that he wanted to continue Us. But without the sex.

So needless to say, I want a horny man. LOL. I like sex. But I like this idiot of a man. So I will keep him on the back burner. Why can't we choose who our heart goes pitter patter over? BLAH.

Well I am going to cut'n'paste this onto my blog/minus your email that originally started this rant HAHAHAHA

My house is as clean as I can make it LOL My landlord has confiscated my in-house vaccuum, so never vaccuuming again. I caught a cat toy in it LOL Rather than the cat, I thought was good HAHAHAH It's a vaccuum that you attach to the wall? Know what I mean?

Oh other news? My landlord is a DragQueen. How do I find the closet queens all the time? Explain that to me. My Father always asks me when I visit him, So what fags have you met lately? FOAD Dad HAHAHAHAHA

Oh talking about Father's - I am visiting him the week after F's Day - Do you feel like a roadtrip? To Maple Bay? Which is basically the Bay for Duncan, B.C.? I would love for you and Connor to visit me there and finally meet my Father and a cousin would be there and no wicked stepMother wouldn't be there. She's a cow anyways. You don't need to meet a cow. HAHAHA It's a thought. You are more than welcome to visit. And FINALLY!!!!!! Meet the Father. He asked about you, as I have your family photo prominently displayed near my computer (if it's near my cpu MUST be important people HAH) I told him you were my Sistahhhhhhhhhhhh HAHAHA That got a massive response from my Idiot step-mother What? You don't have a sister. What are you talking about? The stupid cow took me literally. Thinking my Father had one she did not know about HAHAHAHA I detest stupid people.

Oh Tom Hanks is on The Actor's Studio today. He's kewl, But his hair. What is that?

Oh talking about hair cuts - I have chopped mine back to nothing. And pierced my nose again and I'm magenta again. So I have a million LITTLE curls on my head again. Love it.

Hope you are well, my sistahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh -

Love always,

Charlene

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